Reaching out

Today has been a varied, busy and sunny day, if a little warm at times, not that I mind that, as it is great to see the sunshine! 

As ever there's been the usual range of mind exploding ideas bouncing in and out from one place to another, and several of them may get picked up and processed, turned into reality, whilst others may get parked up for a while until a more appropriate time arrives or the idea grows into something bigger. It makes the day varied, and keeps things from growing 'stale'.

Meanwhile under the surface of the calm, professional exterior, the usual madness and mayhem continues. To be fair, for me today has in the main been pretty good. My anger at someone has calmed a little, although it is still there, but shifting more to annoyance with myself for letting someone else play mind games with my head so much. I do however realise that it is not me in the 'wrong' and that I am not the person that I have been made out to be. The person making those accusations and assumptions about me does not know the true and real me, and has refused to attempt to do so. It is not my job to change me to fit with them. I am blessed to have other friends however that have helped me see the truth of the situation.

I continue to come to terms with feelings around others, but it is a positive thing, emotions settling and soothing, the genuine warmth of a platonic affection taking over. This evening however has been more about helping out another friend, who has had a tough day as her journey and life continues on in a new situation and set up. The damage caused in the past by others towards her has resurfaced and opened up healing scars again, but being able to talk it through and take a more objective view has helped and as the conversation progressed, a calmer and more settled feeling became evident. 

It's funny how sometimes I find myself able to help and support another and yet not be able to see my own path. We are all good at that though in one way or another. Good friends have helped me to get through tough times, whilst also facing their own demons, and today I've been able to do that in return. It's just a case of being close enough and tuned in enough to know when someone is reaching out for help, even if they can't see it themselves.